Scatterbrain

So instead of doing "normal" productive things i'm sitting in the same spot i'm always sitting in. Stuck in my man-cave; Scatterbrain as always, jumping from thought to thought, straining my head to try and figure out thing that are out of my control. I want what I want and I want it now, the more I try the harder it gets. I'm blessed to have the few people in my life that keep me sane and actually care but seem to disappear when i need them most. At the end of the day I just want to be able to say i'm happy, content with life, and loved. I miss love, not the friendship or family kind, I want the serious kind. I'm at a point in my life where i'm realizing the only real thing you have in life is love, happiness, and having an all-around good time.  I know what I have to do to get where I want to be, i'm taking the steps. Just so many distractions and taking way to long. I ask for a lot but i deserve it, i bust my ass to make people happy when i don't usually get the same in return. Life is too short and I am to young to stress the way I do, I hate the cravings, I hate that everytime I get overwhelmed by the little things I want to escape with a little white pill. I'm growing everyday, trying not to repeat the insanity that is my life. I need the pieces to fall into place, i'm ready. I just keep repeating it will get better and i'm sure it will. Life is what you make it and i refuse to feel like this, i need security and stability, sick of people coming and going (even though I do it myself). I've had a long weekend, emotions were up and down like a roller coaster kind of like me and this thing you call a blog. No more emo posts after this, i'm over it. Make me happy or get the fuck out of my way, call me selfish, hate on me (cause i fucking love it), just make sure you know your fucking with. I wear my heart on my sleeve and people mistaken my kindness for weakness (not any more). If you got this far you have no life, you just wasted a few minutes of your life, kill yourself.

On the Continuous Pursuit of happiness

In this crazy, unstable, imbalanced world people come and people go. Nothing is certain but death and taxes but what about love and friendship. As far as i'm concerned life is what you make it, $$$ matters but it won't bring happiness either, you can't change the past; for instance ex's, stupid things you've done wrong, everything. Nothing matters now, move-on grow up, or keep making the same mistakes over and over (btw that's the definition of insanity). I'm grown, i'm getting old, i'm slacking but not on the parts that matter to me. I'm not perfect nor know everything, it's just Me Being Me, I am Loved and Hated but I don't give a fuck as long as you keep my name in the back of your head or even better out your mouth. INFAMOUS. Call me emo but i wear my heart on my sleeve and i can't bite my tongue, i'll never sugar coat shit I just shoot straight from the hip. I am such a mess but together we can make a beautiful mess.
No more games, take it or leave it. 
I'm ready for a real relationship.

"Company Calls"

I keep my distance cause the complications cloud it all

The Philosophy of Time Travel

 

 

Inspired from Donnie Darko, Rip Van Winkle, Back to the Future and my sick and twisted mind, this is something i ponder almost daily. Can one actually travel in time? I believe it's possible and hindsight 20/20 I would have probably  made a few changes but even though we've all heard it over and over, "everything happens for a reason."

Hopefully within my lifetime technology will be advanced enough to make some of my dreams reality.

I'd so take it back to the 60's and have some fun, man, i was born 20 years too late. That's all i got so far, but it's work/research in progress.


When and where would you travel if you could? 


Keep Reading, it's never over...

Where is My Mind

Eyedea & Abilities - Sky Diver (Live)

Rest In Peace Micheal Larsen

On Saturday, October 16, 2010, we lost our beloved friend, family member and artist Micheal “eyedea” Larsen at the age of 28.  Eyedea, who was most notably known for his music with Eyedea & Abilities, Oliver Hart, Face Candy and Carbon Carousel, was an artist in its truest form. He will be deeply missed, but never forgotten. In the days to come, we feel the focus should be on Micheal’s life, music and legacy.  Let’s celebrate his life, remember his music and never forget what he has given us all.

We miss you. We love you. And, you will not be forgotten.

Micheal “eyedea” Larsen 11.09.81 – 10.16.10 R.I.P.

René François Ghislain Magritte

 

The Things You Own End Up Owning You.

Warning:  If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this useless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all that claim it? Do you read everything you're supposed to read? Do you think every thing you're supposed to think? Buy what you're told to want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you're alive. If you don't claim your humanity you will become a statistic.

You have been warned

I like fly ladies, I like tank tops, I like short skirts. I like my impure thoughts. Which go a little something like this.

Men do the things they need to do to become the men they want to be.